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[Feb. 23rd, 2009|12:52 am] |
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Might be back to using Livejournal.
In the meantime. I'll update it today.
Life is pretty tough, but im managing, surprisingly im doing quite well!
Yeah,maybe this year I lost my trust in everyone because I lost a bestfriend.
Well, we're still friends but I just cant seem to trust anymore.
I've realised a whole lot of things, who my real friends are, who are just hi-bye friends,
who are those who seem to be all nice, but behind my back they can stab me so much.
I guess I'm maturing, Im not that bitter about this whole friendship issue because
I know I have many other better friends, and most importantly I know everyone changes.
I've learnt so much, overall I'm thankful to have gone through this.
Then again at the same time, I wish everything was back to what it was 2 years ago....
Sigh. |
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[Jan. 12th, 2009|08:05 pm] |
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I feel so fucking helpless and cynical right now.
I really want to lash out & tell you guys just what I'm feeling right now,
but what's the use when today, we never even exchanged greetings,
we werent even hanging around together, you guys were in trio,
at the same time, not even bothering about me and her. Like we're some strangers.
So even if i did lashed out, i bet i'd be the only one who felt this,
you guys would be so dumbfounded and confused.
Because you guys apparently didnt realise we are friends of five,
not 3 and 2. Fuck
Its seriously what the fuck, because suddenly I dont even feel
like we're the best of friends anymore,
last week none of you even said bye before leaving,
and today, today we've gone a step further away.
I seriously hate this, I dont want to become estranged and come to
school with a heavy heart every single day because this is our last year,
dont you get it? it's our last year! Yet suddenly I feel like i never was a
bestfriend, no offense but i feel replaced and invisible.
I dont want to lose my good friends at a time like these.
4 days. 4 days this issue has been cluttering up my brain,
making me cry to sleep because yeah, call me a crybaby loser crazy bitch,
whatever, but its because you guys are the friends i keep
close to my heart. |
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